Butterflies Of Severed Heartstrings

Just for you, money.

2006-11-27T07:28:00.000-08:00

Started working today, was quite boring cos' I was working alone. Hopefully darling Lina could find the job in Zara, so I got someone to look out during break and after work! [:

Was a lonely girl there lah, fagging and eating alone during break, loved LJS but was sick of it now.

If not for money, I wouldn't start work so soon. Right after my exams and I got a job. Happy that my money is rolling in, but sad that I can't see my sisters and family often. ]:

When I get my pay, i intend to dye my hair, save and shop, and of cos' return my sisters money.

I missed KBOX damn fucking much! I missed singing. ]:

Anyway, shall end here, finished my Fahrenheit's ou xiang ju, now for Ella's and some of Fahrenheit's ou xiang ju. [:

HOHO byebye. Goodnight and take care! [:

I miss my sisters.

No more fucking O'levels!

2006-11-20T08:29:00.000-08:00

Yes! My fucking O'levels had finished! HAHAHAHAHA.

Damn happy okay? Gonna burn all the books man, and of cos' the sucking school uniform.

But. We have to go back to school tomorrow to take our testimonials, boring.

Well, might be going for interviews after school tomorrow, seriously need a job now. I need money~ and I'm starting to feel the bored-ness after O'levels already.

Anyway, had been occupying my time at home by watching Fahrenheit videos from YouTube. The show is damn nice ok! Not forgetting those guys that made me drooled. HAHAHA.

That's the show's title, search for "KO One" and you can start enjoying the show! [:

Alright, he was SUPER handsome in the show, awwww. HAHAHAHA.

Wa lau, this 炎亞綸 too. Ain't him cute? LOL.

Alright, this is the EXTREME. Cutest!

Okay, enough of my craps. Anyway, all I want now is a job. Then, i'll go make my hair, go shopping, go holidays, it's PARTY TIME! HAHAHA.

Was scanning thru' my past pictures and found this.

Was a year or more ago, changed so much. I meant the hairstyle, HAHA. Okay, this picture was a typical one afterall. -.-

Okay, shall continue with Fahrenheit videos, goodnight all and take care! [:

Here's a video of Hebe falling down, if you want to have a great laugh, watch it. HAHAHA.

Byebye! [:

Muscle-aches. Ouch!

2006-11-17T10:51:00.000-08:00

Yeah, just came back from work. Went to eat with darling Rene after work, damn hungry. And I missed fagging that's why. HAHAHA.

So many fucking hours not fagging and eating, aww can die you know?

My muscle aches so much. So fuck, the shoulder like ouchhhhhhhhhh.

Will be working tomorrow again, I have earned my first pay from Pan Pac! HAHAHA. More to come I hope, but that means shorter sleeping time! ]:

Shall end here, blog with pictures another time! Off to watch my Fahrenheit ou xiang ju from YouTube. HAHAHA.

Goodnight! [:

I'm gonna start dieting again, and AGAIN.

2006-11-13T10:29:00.000-08:00

Alright.

The truth is, I've gain weight. I mean WEIGHT-S.

Sigh, I'm starting my diet after O'level, I HOPE.

No fried stuffs, no junk food (oh noooo), no soft drinks, no sweet stuffs, more fruits and veggies and exercise!

Phew! I'm getting tired even by listing all these down. Anyway, I might even try slimming pills again, cos' I really can't stand my fat tummy, my flabby arms and legs.

Ok enough of that, diet makes me sick.

I've bought my ripples slippers! Happy, happy. :D And also bought a top from Double Index, that's my first top from that shop anyway.

Anyway, had lunch with my two darling sisters today before going to TM with Rene darling. There's still so many things to catch up alright! We have to go shopping one day alright, yes just the 3 of us hor! [:

Gonna go to bed soon, anyway here's two funny videos of Xiao Zhu again for you guys. It's a MUST WATCH ok! Damn funny. HAHAHA. Laugh until you can't sleep ah! LOL!

Enjoy! Take care. [:

Ohhhhhhh, see how cute is Xiao Zhu man! Made me laughed like hell. HAHAHA.

Goodnight! :D

Awww I miss shopping!

2006-11-12T09:18:00.000-08:00

Damn. I missed shopping so much ok. I'm a shopping QUEEN lor!

But I have not been doing my "job" since few months back, was broke lah seriously.

So I'll slack around with my darlings and friends everyday, which is truly very enjoyable to me too. [:

Anyway, I've seen some nice tops from this online shopping website www.fashion-happiness.blogspot.com. So nice can! I want! ]:

I like this top alot! Singapore got meh? I only know there's similar ones but with either short sleeves or tube.

This is cute! I love the back design of it. Ahhhhhhhhhhh, kill me please.

The colour's so sweet. [:

Nice man. I've finally found those bright-colours-heart-shaped necklaces in marina square! I'm gonna bring them home soon. HAHAHA.

Anyway, got news from Rene that the timing for O'level POA have changed from 10.30am to 11.30am. Can you imagine that? And do you want to know the reason why?

It is due to traffic arrangements to facilitate US President George Bush's visit to Singapore, Channel News Asia said so. -.-

Can't believe it, what has it got to do with our O'level? Bloody funny.

Just take note everyone, if you are taking POA exam.

Ok enough of that, anyway I've started my job training. Was quite fun but tedious, more on hand muscles I think. HAHAHA. I mean we have to carry heavy trays and stuffs lah!

Maybe going to TM or Bugis tomorrow. I want my Ripples slippers! Roarrrrrr, I love them so much. And of cos' to shop around and see if anything catch my eyes. I told you I'm a shopping queen. HAHAHA.

Chatting with darling sister, am going to sleep after that.

Here's a funny video for you guys, those who have been watching 娱乐百分百 everyday like me, you will like this. Don't doubt, they are Xiao Zhu and Xiao gui. HAHAHA.

Enjoy and take care! [:

Stabbed thats why.

2006-11-12T02:56:00.000-08:00

Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the Fibs alone.
Then, stab 5 people to do the same test

I miss somebody right now.
I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I have changed mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse.
I'm totally smart. HAHAHA!
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling.
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller ID.
I like the way I look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop than eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I have a cell phone.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I'm shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I study for tests most of the time.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle.
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I wear a toe ring.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

Stockings are disgusting.

2006-11-10T10:26:00.000-08:00

Yes, stockings are disgusting.

But guess what, we have to wear that for job training for tomorrow! :x

My two darlings and I spent alot of time to find that specified black shoes and bloody stockings man!

Am waking up tomorrow morning at 10+ am to trim my hair, then off to meet Rene at 11.30am.

How early is that man. I am going to sleep soon, yes I really do hope there is no tossings and turnings today.

Then went to Downtown East cos' Rene wanted to pass her sister things, and went back to our house's nearby mac to meet Mr Nicholas and Wei Jing.

Rene didn't join us cos' she was not feeling well, take good care darling! Get well soon ok. [:

Lina and Brownie, and what's that expression on WJ's face?! HAHAHA.

We love this picture! So sweeeeeeeet. [:

Emo owner gets jealous. HAHAHAHA.

My fat round face. Roarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. ]:

I'm always "Zi Lian-ing", I'm so sorry. :/

Me and Lina darling. [: Happy, happy.

Since Rene darling is not there, here's a old picture of us to show me how much I love you guys ok! :D

Yawns, sleeping soon. Morning grandpa sun, I'm gonna see you tomorrow. XD

By the way, I love this song by 曹格 and 卓文萱! The title is 梁山伯与茱丽叶. But isn't it 梁山伯与祝英台 and 罗密欧与茱丽叶? HAHAHA. I guess that's the creative part of this song. [:

Enjoy!

Maths sucks.

2006-11-09T12:00:00.000-08:00

Yes I hate Maths. And tomorrow is my Maths paper two. Damn it! :[

Went to study today, I'll let the pictures do the talking. [:

Brownie came to join us. Mr Nicholas is a crazy owner. HAHAHA.

Get my meaning?

I AM REALLY STUDYING OK? :/ I like this candid shot by Rene. [:

My "Zi Lian" shot by me.

A finally-candid-shot of Rene.

U weekly magazine! They are cute, ain't them? HAHAHA.

And finally! The slacking/fagging time. :D

Sleeping soon, take care all! [:

I love you both, always. [:

Wolf.

2006-11-08T03:23:00.000-08:00

Brownie, Mr Nicholas' new puppy.

His name is actually Ah Nic at first, then Ah Boy, but at last Rene gave him the name "Brownie".

Butter, Lina's 3 months old puppy.

She's super active but still soooo cute. I've finally touched her head today! HAHAHA.

Brownie in Rene's arms, so cute ain't him? [:

I must learn to play with them, cos' I'm veryyyyyy afraid of dogs.

Nicholas' Brownie is very 'Cai cai' (sissy in english) okay?! HAHAHA, Nicholas is gonna kill me again. XD

And Na's Butter is very sporty and active man, even more 'man' then Brownie.

O'levels is gonna end soon.

[: 3 more papers to go.

HOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHOHO. :D

I love her and I hate her.

Take care! [:

O'levels in 5 days!!!

2006-11-01T10:18:00.000-08:00

5 days to 6th of November!

Stressed but very excited! HAHAHA.

Had been studying with my sisters and friends these few days, but what we were doing was much of talking and fagging. HAHAHA.

But I'm definitely not stress-er than other peeps, 'cos I'm aiming for a school that does not require much passes. [:

Andrea's:

Cute and naughty Andrea.

There, Andrea's new and fashionable friend.

Ah anyway, there's this new Taiwan boy group which caught my eyes, their group name is Fahrenheit in English and 飛輪海 in chinese.

Very-good-looking guys. HAHAHA.

I like the 汪東城 the most, then 炎亞綸. But overall, all are alright.

I remembered watching a show where 炎亞綸 claims that the reason for cutting wa-wa fringe (his hairstyle in this picture might not be obvious cos' it's a old picture) is that he admires Yang Chen Ling alot. MUAHAHAHA. So he had her hairstyle on purpose, so funny.

Here's a Music Video of their song 只對你有感覺, featuring Hebe from S.H.E..

Enjoy!

The usuals..

2006-10-26T03:47:00.000-07:00

Finally came back to blog again cos' I'm rotting at home now.

Yes, I AM ROTTING. Can't wait to go out man, I hate rotting at home, it's way too borrrrrrring. :[

Well, went to have lunch with my two sisters in the afternoon. I went back home and they went to Queenstown with Lina's mum and sis. I'm so damn bored okay, if only there are 5 seats in the cab. :/ But I think I shouldn't follow lah, it's better to avoid those misunderstandings. Thus in this way, staying at home is the best. [:

Everyone's having their own lifes now, can only hope that these lunch and dinner sessions wouldn't disappear out of a sudden. :/ Or perhaps I should stay at home more often too mmm.

Am waiting for my mum to come home with some yummy curry chicken..

Anyway, here's a funny video to share with you guys, take care!

Fucking handphone bill!

2006-10-18T03:37:00.000-07:00

My handphone bill is getting more and more expensive every month man! You know why? It's because there's a mistake in the type of plan I'm supposed to have. Mine was a student plan with a thousand free smses, but they only gave me $23 worth of smses, for months man! WTF, everytime like that one, no wonder my father every month so noisy. ><

I'm going down to Tampines tommorrow I think, to let them change my handphone plan again. Fucking dulan, cos' had a major quarrel with my father, which pulled my mum in too (everytime de). -.-

I told them I'm moving out when I'm 18 years old, I'm gonna work on my own and move in with my sisters. I really hope they'll grant me their permission when I'm 18.

Anyway, we went to Orchard Thai Express for an interview, hopefully we can get the job. We are moving on to Pan Pac to interview soon. and some other more restaurants. Should be taking up 2 jobs at a time after O'level, have to earn a great sum of money fast.

After some consideration with my sisters, I've decided to go Nanyang Academy Of Fine Arts after getting my O'level result, gonna work hard for the expensive school fees man. ><

What's my choice? Fashion studies of cos' haha. My ONLY talent is only in art, my studies sucks and according to my sisters' observable, I hate number figures and I sucked in them. This explains why I failed my Mathematics and Poa so badly. :/

Might be attending a friend's birthday chalet tommorrow, shall update again when I'm free.

Pictures will be up after my sister send me the pictures, cos' my fucking cable is spoilt AGAIN. ><

Well to those who are interested in winning attractive prizes and have talent in fashion design, join this compeition held by Flesh Imp! Here's the link:

http://www.fleshimpanniversary.com/index.html

Here's a survey I've done, it's about love relationship I reckon:

Survey

1. Single, taken or crushing ?
Single.

2. Are you happy with your life now ?
Both yes and no. More to yes cos' of my lovely sisters! [:

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him fast ?
Nah, unless it's love at first sight.

4. Have you ever had your heartbroken ?
Yes.

5. Do you believe there are some circumstances where cheating love is acceptable ?
Absolutely no.

6. Would you take someone back if he cheats on you ?
Never.

7. Have you talked about marriage with another before ?
No.

8. Do you want children ?
Yes.

9. How many ?
2 is enough.

10. Would you consider adoption ?
Nah.

11. If someone likes you right now, what do you think is the best way to let you know his feelings ?
Face to face confessions? I'm not sure.

12. Do you enjoy getting in relationship ?
Both yes and no.

13. Be honest, what is the furthest you and your ex did ?
Duh.

14. Do you believe in love at first sight ?
Yes, certainly.

15. Are you romantic ?
I don't know.

16. Do you believe you can change someone ?
No, I like the person as who he is from the very start when I knew him.

17. If you could married to somewhere, where would it be ?
Somewhere romantic like Paris? HAHA. (So I can grab as many LVs and Guccis I want! [:)

18. Have you ever broken a heart ?
Yes I reckon.

19. If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy you deeply in love with, what would you do ?
I can't do anything. I'll leave the decision to the guy, but no matter what, I will not let anything to hurt the friendship between my friends and I.

20. Are you missing somebody now ?
Nah, my sisters only. [:

A must-watch video!!! It's super sweet and funny haha, there are four parts below. [:

Part I

Part II

Part III

Part IV

Haha, the girl in the video is so cute, and that fucking auntie in the video is so funny! HAHA.

Am starting to study for O'level later :x, it's fucking too late I know. But at least better than never study right?! :/

Shall update again tommorrow, take care! [:

钱钱钱, 老娘没钱~

2006-10-13T03:08:00.000-07:00

Currently blogging from Lina's house. Finally, went to school today, damn bored. If there's isn't a need for us to sign those O'levels papers, we wouldn't have gone to school lor, so bo liao, go there only sleep and eat lol. XD

There was actually extra lessons till 5pm, but we didn't go. Siao ah, don't know anything about the topic go there for what man. Waste our time only, never give us home leave for O'levels we very sian liao. Still make us stay in school for fucking long hours. >,< I'm not starting to study yet cos' I have to work! Money, money, money.. Eat, drink, play, 'breathe air', and transportation all need money man.

Am still in the process of finding new jobs, perhaps working as waitress, in Thai Express or Cafe Cartel etc. Pay not bad, so no harm giving it a try. O'levels still can study one lah, we intend to go to private schools, so It doesn't matter much to us too. :/

Everything also need money lor. >,< I rather work myself and spend my own money. Since my parents are so reluctant to give me, asking for money is such a tired chore too. :x

Nevermind, it's not like I didn't work before, been working all these times but stopped few months ago due to exams periods. The pay wasn't high, so if there's another better opportunity, don't mind getting it.

Wa lau, life's been so boring. No money anywhere also cannot go. Even my transportation fees also $1 per bus ride cos I've lost my ezlink and it's my last year already, so didn't cared much about it. $1 here and everywhere. And even when we are wearing our school uniforms we paid 55c, that uncle still want us to produce our ezlink.

Kao! Will we bo liao until we wear school uniform to save that 45c?! Nowadays ah, bus drivers like fuck.

No more town sessions, cos' no money.
No more Kbox sessions, cos' no money.
No more Taxi rides, cos' no money.
No more pool sessions, cos' no money.
No more full pack, cos' no money.
No more fastfood deliveries, cos' no money.
No more mood, cos' NO MONEY LAH!!!!

I wished that my motherfatherbrothersgrandpagrandmaauntyunclecousinswhoever win 4D or TOTO, so you guys can spare me some pocket money right? Hoho, dream on.

Everyday, my mother will go, "See! My number 'jumped' again! Sure is because of you, if I win I buy you new handphone liao lor.."

Aiya also hear until sian, wait for 10 years still the same fucking sentences.

And I don't see why is my business why the number will 'jumped'. -.-

Adults- 无理取闹.

Fishing?

2006-10-10T09:57:00.000-07:00

Well don't ask me why I'm posting another shit, cos' I feel like essay-ing lor lol. Bodoh lah, just want to express my thinkings for the day. :/

To all the peeps out there, do you all know what a guy really wants? I can tell you straight into your eyes, your answer's a fucking big NO. Yes, a N for nabei and a O for orange. Am i right?

Don't give me answers like sex lah, money lah, computer games lah.. I mean what they want as in the way they settle BGR.

Sometimes I really wonder, how can guys be so stupid and do something that will upset girls? Thou' it's regardless of friends or girlfriends. And how could a guy like many fucking girls at a time?! I call them despera-dos. Hunting for innocent girls whom gave them their true feelings. Time to learn something useful in life girls, and protect ourselves.

I know liao, guys adored fishing alot right? Now I know why, fishing is always in their lifes, especially fishing for girls.

In chinese they say, "放长线钓大鱼".

I must admit girls will use this method too, but I think guys are suitable for this new sentence by me, "钓不到大鱼, 放多一点的线钓小鱼".

Cos' if you remember, people like to say in hokkien, "Bo hin, hei ma hou lah!"

Meaning, "No fish, prawns also can lah!"

I've met alot of guys like this, and in the past, I've been one of the small fishes biting on the fishing rods before.

But now, I guess I've already learnt how to differentiate between those fishers whom are just looking and waiting for one big fish that they love, and between those fishers whom are only looking for small fishes to stuck the holes between their teeth. :/

Just a advice to these types of guys, don't bother to look for other targets if you are just wooing one girl. You are just lying to yourself and lying to many people. Isn't that stupid and tiring to wear a mask on the face, and use different methods to woo different girls? Dudes, just find a girl, woo her wholeheartedly and yes off you go.

The moral of the story:

Don't fucking be a desperado and you will be blessed. [:

Happy 16th Birthday Wei Xian! [Part II]

2006-10-10T08:43:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the late update, was busy yesterday. :/

Anyway, Wei Xian's birthday was celebrated at Kbox (Marine Parade), what's more funny is that her fruitty birthday cake's the same as last year's! It was bought by Lek's mother so I sweared that it was of pure coincidence!

Didn't post any pics up cos' I don't know why my fucking hp cable is spoil?!?!

Haha, now people 'tian-mi-mi' liao, no matter what, I wish you guys all the best in the future. [:

But, everyone's mood isn't that good on that day I reckon, life is so bad and we fucking have to cont' our journey, what a shit. :/

Blah. Shall cont' later, yes I'm posting another post, yes call me 'bo-liao' queen.

Happy 16th Birthday Wei Xian!

2006-10-08T10:57:00.000-07:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY WEIXIAN!

Haha today is a exciting day man! So happy for my friends, wish you guys all the best!

Well shall update Wei Xian's birthday celebration tommorrow!

You shall enjoy your birthday alot, alot tommorrow! [: Love you sister! Cya' in school.

Yawns, sleeping soon. I've slept for almost 12 hours today anyway. :/

School's tommorrow again, fuck man.

Goodnight!

First post in new blog. [:

2006-10-07T02:37:00.000-07:00

I'm back to myself again. [:

So I'll present you my new blog! Well got this blog name while I was surfing some websites, I find it very 'artistic', haha!

Created my own blog banner again, it was kinda' simple but there are many butterflies around and it was black/white in colour. [:

Well I have not finish my blog yet, shall cont' again tommorrow. My eyes are tired after all the hours making this..

I'm going out later to meet Lina, Serene and the rest, might be staying overnight with them again. [: Anyway, my only aim now is to earn many, many money! I have to achieve this in order to survive, they really created alot of problems for me..

And yup, stop talking to me about O'level, seriously I have not even started studying yet, I don't know when I'm starting too. I'm waiting for everything to settle down first and 'till then I will have the mood to study.

JC/Poly? No.

Privates? Yessssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss.

I'm aiming for a private school after O'level and I can tell you why, 'cos the time are really flexible and short, and I only have to study for one and 1/2 years, which is exactly 1/2 of Poly life! But yes, privates are expensive and I decided to take up more jobs at a time after O'level to earn these money. Wish me luck.. [:

And for the 'frequent-asked' topic about guys and BGR.. I'm using my eyes and heart to see people now, who's good and who's not, I hope I will have the answer soon. [: I'm bad in recognizing different types of people, that is why in the past I ended up with guys who doesn't even suit me. So now, I'm going to open my super-sonic eyes to watch, observe and SEEEEEEEEEEE.

Oh yah, I forgot to say something,

I REALLY HATE THE HAZE!!!

It's making me cough and sneeze like hell, and I almost have this feeling that the oxygen in the air is getting lesser and lesser..

The haze kept on increasing today, how I hope one day my school will go, "Attention, from tommorrow onwards, there will be no lessons due to the heavy haze."

Wa lau I will be damn happy lor!

But, dream on man. Singapore schools where got so good one? They just want the children to study and study 'till they die.

Bloody haze, I'll love you if you keep on increasing and make the school close.

I'll hate you if you keep making me cough! Fuck!

Anyway, shall end my first post here, take care! [: